Sleepless…

Filed under: Just Personal — Eman at 12:31 am on Monday, February 5, 2007

Today my husband left to Paris on a business trip. As happy as I am for him, I can’t help feeling so lonely.
This is the second time he travels after the birth of Adam, who decides to get sick every time daddy leaves! few days before my husband’s trip to Manchester, Adam had to catch cold! Now, only a couple of days before the Paris trip, he gets seriously sick.

At 8, Adam fell asleep, I put him in his bed and decided to watch some TV till I feel sleepy. At around 9 he woke up -really angry- and started crying and coughing. After giving him his medicine he went to sleep, only to wake up 15 minutes later -really hungry- crying and screaming. After taking his milk he went back to sleep. I got extremely sleepy, but I put him next to me in our room this time, and just like that, I fell asleep. 15 minutes later, a tiny hand slapping my face wakes me up, Adam’s nose is bothering him. After getting it cleaned up we both fell asleep. 20 minutes later I feel this weird thing grabbing my throat… it was Adam again, he was grabbing my throat and twisting its skin, lol. Turns out he woke up because of the coughing and couldn’t get back to sleep, so decided to “play” with my throat!
After waking up several times I couldn’t get back to sleep anymore…you must know this annoying feeling when you’re tired and sleepy but you can neither sleep nor do anything else, so you end up staring at anything like a retard! this is what I was going through before deciding to write this post.

Anyway, if I don’t rest well I wont be able to take care of Adam, so I need to force myself to sleep… after reading a bit maybe!

Sweet dreams everyone.

10 Comments »

Comment by Karin

February 5, 2007 @ 2:40 am

I know exactly what you’re saying … when both my boys were little, this is what I “enjoyed” as well! For some two years I did not know what a whole-night-sleep is .. it sounded to me like something incredibly wonderful, something I had almost forgotten how it feels - and how I(!) would feel! Despite it all … enjoy the time - it passes SO FAST! Both my sons are adults today … all what’s left of this time, are memories!
Just hang in there … I still remember SOOOO WELL what it means to feel like a zombie!

Comment by saad

February 5, 2007 @ 7:13 am

Your son grabbed your throat and twisted it? Obviously you have a very sly and cunning child, and so you must always remain vigilant and sleep with one eye open lest he try to kill you again. :)

Comment by kinzi

February 5, 2007 @ 9:06 am

Ya Eman, mommy… thank you for the reminder of those sleepless nights when I complain about whiny 5 year olds. those nights when daddy is traveling, and you are the sole comforter of a sad and sick child, they are hard. I will be praying for you today!

Comment by Jimbo

February 5, 2007 @ 12:22 pm

Oh my. Yes, I remember those days when Mom was in Africa and I was in Washington with our two year-old daughter. Uncanny: the instant Mom left, ear infection set in. (The child’s ear. :) ) And she was very, very angry, :( , probably with a distinct sense of abandonment. And then the poor kid cut her hand, requiring several stitches. Child unhappy, Dad s t r e s s e d.

But we got through it. And at least Marwen’s not gone for a year!

Hope you both got some rest. (And what nice gifts have you encouraged MMM to bring the two of you from the City of Light? :) )

Comment by Imannnnn

February 5, 2007 @ 2:27 pm

Dear Eman,

Thanks to moments like these children realize how much they’re loved. As a child, I think Adam feels all the love you have for him. When I was a little girl, I was so naughty, my mommy says. Yet, she did her best, she showed a lot of patience, affection, love and understanding. Today, though I may not remember the challenges my mom went through to bring me up, I am absolutely sure of her tremendous love. And I love her, and will love her as long as I live..

Comment by Eman

February 8, 2007 @ 12:47 am

Karin, thank you so much for the comment dear.
I’ll do my best to enjoy this time… You must be so proud of yourself for your accomplishment! raising kids is not an easy thing to do.
Thanks again for the support, nothing better than the words of someone who’s been there.

Saad, LOL! oh come on, he’s just a little angel playing with my throat not trying to kill me (or is he) hahaha! Will follow your advice anyway, thanks!

Kinzi, thanks dear, ah God, being the sole comforter is one hell of a responsibility, but your comment did make me feel better as it comes from experience :)

Jimbo, God! surviving a whole year alone with the kid! wow, you must be some kind of a super man! this is really impressive, you must be proud.
I got sick, no rest yet, and well, I’m leaving the gifts for MMM’s own taste ;) no, him coming back home will be the best gift.
Thanks for the sweet comment :)

Iman, all I can say, your mum must be proud to have all that love from you. You know, the thought that one day Adam will grow up and -hopefully- love me enough to say what you said about your mom, the thought alone charged me with unbelievable energy!
God bless your mom for you :)

Comment by oranginaaa

February 8, 2007 @ 11:22 pm

You reminded me of something you posted before, where you talked about your mother taking care of all of you, when your dad was away or something, and now i read this, and i feel you are becoming a copy of your mother. And that’s really something!:)

Comment by Elizabeth

February 10, 2007 @ 7:00 pm

Hey Eman! I am totally relating to you in each aspect! My husband travels abroad for 4 months at a time…I have a 5 month old baby, Abdurrahman, who currently has bronchit…so that means that we have a lot of nose cleaning, hair pulling, crying, sniffling “fun” all night long too….I hope he doesn’t learn how to twist my throat skin…YIKES!!! I hope to meet you soon as well. My friend Jill(another american muslima) will be having her baby Yusef in Tunis in about 3 weeks, inshallah,I will be traveling there so I will contact you before I go !!! Take care- my thoughts are with you Dear.

Comment by refugee

February 10, 2007 @ 8:26 pm

Eman when you wrote ” a tiny hand slapping my face wakes me up” it is a heart and mental synergies of unconditional love .
Precious lovely things don’t come easy ,they arrive into our life with a hidden price tag dear with a hidden value ,regardless we accept and give more of our selves with an added value of love ,unconditional love only mothers can give ,did you call your mother lately to wish her same dear value “love”how nice for all of us who care for you to share such feelings .

Comment by Eman

February 15, 2007 @ 3:52 pm

Orange, 7abibti, you remember what I write! I’m flattered. Thanks for the touching note, I hope one day I’ll become a fraction of what mom really is…
Thanks a lot my dear :)

Elizabeth, wow you’re a hero! you spend all that time alone while your husband is abroad, that must be a big responsibility!
I hope your abdurrahman (beautiful name) is feeling a lot better now. And I truly wish we can meet when you come to Tunis. And congrats in advance to your friend Jill, she must be so happy to have you as a friend away from home :)

Refugee, what beatiful words…
thanks so much, and yes I always call mom and let her know how much I love her although I never felt that I really expressed how I really feel inside, it’s just that words are not good enough, and distance makes it so difficult to show your loved ones how much they mean to you…

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